im making this a seperate post because it seems the little hospital adventure has been more than 1 night...and is going to have a twist in the story.
first off, they would not let me keep vigil overnight in mum's room since the other night. last night, i was actually receptive to going home because they made her take propylene glycol to clear her out before a colonoscopy in the morning. as i type, she's spending the night exploding out every end....probably out even ones she didn't know exist.
Also, she must NOT have been well! she decided to allow me to borrow the car which she usually never allows me into the driver's seat of. i can finally get to say i have been able to drive my dream car. (we have a beetle.) i called the insurance company and asked to be put back under my mother's insurance because they said it will supposedly lower her bill a bit, and because my husband can't drive yet, so there's no way for him to have insurance, and i can't afford my own currently. however, they said that due to previous accidents i had, i will not be covered in an accident if i drive my mother's car. if i had my own, that would be different. however, a car is one thing definately not in my budget currently. and most likely, my mother may be released today....and most us...her doctors, therapists, and i all agree that she needs to go to further rehab care to address her balance issues. she, of course, says she'd rather go home first, and then go later. but i fear the repurcussions of this. she even almost fell in the bathroom yesterday when the therapist was with her holding her. and though therapist is a bit older than me, i can assure you her back is in better shape. i am a bit scared i will confess, because i will be left on my own for a couple weeks, being left to manage all home related duties on my own, isntead of being the assistant as usual, and have got to contemplate how im going to nail the transportation thing. i do have my liscence and it's current, but after 8 years im a bit rusty. i've been taking back roads behind the hospital and back to the house but i dont feel confident yet to be on the road itself, unless it's at hours when it's less busy. also, there are bills that will need to be dealt with, some of the utilities and her isnurance and such are due. i have to wrangle that stuff. i will have to see if i can take the car down to the hospital, park it somewhere out of the way for the day, and take the bus to where i need to go. i hate taking the bus here, because in a small city, most riders are transients and nutcases, and i was a woman grab my breast in one for no apparent reason. i can probably manage to get the bills out, and will be able to work with those the bills are being owed to, and our lawyer who we were supposed to see for matters concerning my grandfather. maybe we can deal with some of that via mail and phone. im REALLY glad i got my iphone now. the past couple months i wondered if perhaps i had been a little crazy in spending money on it when i should have used it for other things, but now, i'm glad i did. i got the gps turn by turn navigation activated, which will help if i get lost during my journeys. my one college buddy came to the hospital and has been keeping in touch with me, so i have a pretty good support system. i don't know where my husband, aunt and uncle are...i tried to call them all week, and got answering machines, so they must have taken a trip somewhere. maybe a wedding, jewelery thing, or some conference for dr.s, which is the usual excuses. unless auntie and uncle decided to go travelling again, but they were in egypt in december. so ill keep tabs on that later. im sure they r fine, i just want to let them know that i will be on duties here and will not be able to get up there until mum returns. also, i am her POA, but i dont know where my POA papers are, because she has those and god only knows where she has them. however, i do have her wallet, and know the bankcard pin because she has me help her with it. she's letting me use it as long as i am careful with the spending, which is good because i have 3 dollars left till the end of the month because i had gotten her a cheaper iphone so we could text each other when she can't hear, and so that when im in new york, i can keep in conatct with her even if she is not home. or if she is home and can't hear me. so anyway...as i said, im a bit scared because i have all these responsibilites that i will have to deal with on such short notice, but i also know that my mother needs that care very badly, and if she doesn't, things could be far worse. also, this may be a springboard to help get her long term assistance which she needs...assistance which i was wondering how i'd get when my hubby and i move to flushing NY or wherever we end up. so this def HAS to be, and im happy about it.....but i will just have to take a deep breath charge my ipod, swallow my pride, put on my brave face, and deal with things. i know you guys are also great support, and sorry this post got to be soooo long! but as always, i will keep you posted of the adventures i'll be going through. my besty and i vowed to go to musikfest before this whole thing happened, and to be honest, i think when we get there the frist week of august i will be dying for it.
