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Bye bye Beefy Binx.
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Posted 2 years ago by mollycat71 #
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I am so very sorry. It hurts so much. You gave him so much, love, cuddling and hope. Do not be so hard on yourself. He knew that he was loved in his sweet little short like. Having lost both of my newborns recently I know how much it hurts. You did such a good job. I am so touched that you tried so hard. Cry and hold on to each other. Please do not let this keep you from sharing your wonderful heart with other babies. When it works out it is so very worth the effort. I will keep you all in my prayers. I'm sending lots of love, prayers and hugs to you. Know that we all are holding good thoughts for you and Luke. Rest in peace sweet Binx. He is playing with my Sophie and Black Jack right now. My 2 little newborns are are a bit timid but I know that they will be there too. Love you.
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RIP binx i lit a candle for him
Posted 2 years ago by ilovecatsforever #
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Thank you guys. I just feel exhausted right now - all my energy has just... disappeared - and I feel lost - they made me Mum and now I'm not, I have no mummy duties - a huge twist in my routine.. sudden change I don't like.
Posted 2 years ago by Sinspearian #
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Sins...I'm sorry also. I know very well the pain your feeling. I've had to make that same decision numerous times in my life. Holding each & every one of them in my arms until they 'went to sleep'. I still cry from time to time from missing my babies,but,I know in my heart that I made the right decision for all of them. I promise you,the pain will get easier to bear in time. You'll come to realize you made the very best decision you could. I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{HUGS}}}
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Jade, I have just come back and found this thread. I am so, so terribly sorry. All of us could tell how much you loved Missy and Binx. And we know how much you did for them. They are so fragile, these little kittens. We want so much for it always to have a good ending, but you must remember how fragile they really are.
This won't help to ease your pain, but I hope might help to ease your guilt. I am a "people" nurse. Aspiration happens and it is nothing that you did wrong. People aspirate and die of pneumonia. Usually it means that there is a defect in the swallowing mechanism. You did nothing wrong to cause that, it is just one of those terrible things that happens.
Although his life was short, Binx knew that you loved him. There are so many little kittens in this world who die without ever knowing the loving touch of a hand. Binx was blessed in knowing from the beginning that he was loved.
Of course you will grieve for him. But you mustn't feel guilty over what has happened. Some things are never meant to be within our control.
Hugs to you and to Luke. And so many prayers for Binx and Missy.
Posted 2 years ago by WillowandWindismom #
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Thank you Feral. I really don't know how people can do it, and still get more kitties just to one day do it again - that's now my fear with my remaining kitties. I feel for everyone who has had to make that horrible decision and admire how strong people are, how they are to carry on, even get new babies etc.
Posted 2 years ago by Sinspearian #
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Thank you so much W&WM explaining that has lifted some guilt. So I wasn't feeding him wrong? He just like happened to breathe in at the wrong time? Or just didn't swallow as often as he should? Something like that?
Posted 2 years ago by Sinspearian #
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The duck I was speaking about smells of Binx, I think I'm going to cuddle it tonight... Is that weird?
Posted 2 years ago by Sinspearian #
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I'm off to bed now guys - I'm shattered. Sweet dreams to everyone and much love. Thank you again for being here for us we will repay you somehow, someday. I will speak to you all tomorrow xxxx
Posted 2 years ago by Sinspearian #
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Yes, Jade - exactly like that. Little Binx might have taken a breath just as he swallowed and that could have allowed fluid to enter his lungs. You weren't feeding him wrong. But you had no control over when he breathed or how he swallowed. I know this is hard for you, but you did so much for these little babies. So much more than many people would have done. They will be precious memories for you. And you will go on - and you will always have that love and need to help these most innocent of God's creatures.
Posted 2 years ago by WillowandWindismom #
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snuggle up with that little ducky, it is not weird at all!
Posted 2 years ago by mollycat71 #
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Oh no...I just got back and saw this thread - I have tears in my eyes reading through all the posts. I am so sorry to hear about little Binx, Jade and Luke you are in my thoughts and prayers tonight. It's so hard to lose a tiny and precious life, especially when you have such love and hope the grief seems overwhelming. Binx knew your love and care throughout his short time with you. You are a great kitty mom, all your other fur babies know it too. You are probably in bed now, but I hope you wake up tomorrow with a peaceful heart knowing you did everything in your power for Binx and that he is now with Missy at the Bridge and they are playing together like they never got to do on Earth. {{{{JADE & LUKE}}}}
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Jade and Luke,
I am crying for you and with you. This is so, so, so sad. But don't think you failed either Missy or Binx. You gave them love and the only chance of life they had. You did everything right, nature just wasn't working with you. It's very possible that the mama cat deserted these two because she knew they had problems. That happens often. Think of how awful it would have been for the two little kittens if no one had found them, brought them into a warm home and nurtured and loved them. You did everything you could; you couldn't know what other plans had already been made for your babies.
Posted 2 years ago by CheetahBoysmommy #
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I'm so very sorry. {{{Jade & Luke}}} Binx knew love, because of you. *going to light a candle*
Posted 2 years ago by JoanfromNewJersey #
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Bother! bother! bother! I'm so sorry that things have turned out this way Sins & Luke. The screen is all blurry here, it's heart breaking. You did your best and more for Missy and Binx but they were just so young. They are both reunited over the Rainbow Bridge and chatting about their wonderful parents and how much you two loved them. You both had to make the hardest but kindest decision for Binx, and that shows your love for him. Cuddles the duck Sins, it's not weird unless the rest of us TDKers are weird(that's possible too).
{{{Sins & Luke}}}
http://www.novareinna.com/bridge/rhymes.htmlPosted 2 years ago by Moonshadow_NZ #
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I just logged in and I can't bear it, this is such terrible news. I don't know what to say, Sins, last time I logged in we were all rapt over Binx's little photos, he looked like a tiny wee otter baby, so beautiful. I am so, so sorry. Everything that everyone else has said is true, the babies are so fragile, I lost two from the same litter and it was such a shock, even though I knew others from the litter had already died, and I hadn't raised them the way you raised darling Binx. I'm so, so sorry. He knew how much you loved him. My heart goes out to you.
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Bless Binks, Missy and you. You did everything you could. Try not to sorrow too much; your baby kitties would not want that. Don't be surprised if the Universe sends you new little loves to take care of. Not that they could replace Missy and Binks, but God doesn't want you to suffer and knows that it would warm your heart to have some new little ones to love. Just like you eased your baby kittie's suffering, God wants to ease yours, and so does everyone else here at TDK.
Posted 2 years ago by Kitty poet #
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You did everything possible...it was nature. Binx is with his sister and they are in a sweet pile-up purring away. You know, every time I saw his avatar my heart melted...you know how you can fall in love with some of these pictures here? Binx had that effect- probably not just on me...
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Oh, this is not the kind of update I was hoping to see!!! So very sorry about your second loss in such a short time! What the others have said is true - you were not at fault! It is very difficult to successfully hand raise the teensy ones... but you and Luke did everything anyone could, and gave both Missy and Binx love and a family, which they knew, and appreciated. I am sure Binx was looking up to you to say "thanks for doing this last hard thing, Mum" - I have had to put 2 of my cats to sleep and it is the hardest thing! Grieve with Luke, cuddle the kits you still have, sleep with the scary duck, and keep posting here. We know what you are going thru. {{{{Jade, Luke, Missy and Binx}}}} {{{Rest of furfamily}}} I hope you dream of the Bridge, as I did after losing my Butterscotch! Very comforting!
Posted 2 years ago by nawlins catmom #
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I'm sorry Jade...I had to leave my computer for a time but I'll say this sweetie that you will ALWAYS love Binx and Missy and there will likely be others in the future that you may lose as well but the important thing is that you loved them when they were here and needed you. There are so many animals today who are alone, sick and hungry with noone to call family. The most loving people in the world are the strongest and as much as you're feeling pain right now just imagine Binx and Missy romping the Rainbow Bridge together strong and happy. They'd certainly want you to be happy too don't you think? Of course and you have all your other kitties who love you and need you. Sending you all the healing love and prayers I can muster. You and Luke have been great kitten parents. Comfort one another...tomorrow is a new day.
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Jade and Luke, I am devastated by this news, as I know you are. Don't blame yourselves, you did everything you could to save your precious Binx and Missy. I lit a candle here: http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/message.cfm?l=eng&cid=8933518
Rest in peace, sweet Binx. {{{{Jade and Luke}}}} -
Missy and Binx crouch next to the Brook, watching the tall reeds sway. A dragonfly, wings flashing with sunlight, balances on one green reed.
Parfait moves quietly behind them, the dappled light stroking her black and white fur. These two new kittens appear to be a little older than they were, not quite Parfait's size, but a little larger than they were before.
Parfait's head ducks as a mama cat moves behind her; she knows that a washup is coming. She arches her back against her mama, and Binx looks up quickly.
Missy looks at Parfait, and the mama cat smiles at her and leans over to kiss Missy softly. Binx cuddles next to the mama cat, lulled by the deep laughing purr of the sweet creature.
Speck and two other babies stare at the dragonfly, and when he takes flight, they, too, see the mama cat and move to lean against her.
"There are a lot of babies here," says Binx to the large cat.
"I'm not a baby!" says Parfait.
"Of course you're not," says the mama cat, "but for now you are all my babies!"
"Why are there so many of us little cats here?" says Missy.
"Because kittens are such lovely beings, and they are so fragile," rumbles the mama cat as she washes Parfait's ears. "It is so difficult for any of them to live long."
"But why?" asks Speck, chin quivering. "I know our humans wanted us to stay with them. Why couldn't we?"
"Because some things happen which even I don't understand," said the mama cat. "Even the Wolf says that. But when things happen and you have to leave them too soon, you come here."
"But why are we a little bigger?" says Misty, and Binx moves closer to her.
"That is so that you can enjoy this place more," says the mama cat. "You can walk a bit better, and watch the fishes in the Brook, and race up the Tree anytime you want."
"And," she said, gathering them all close, "you can run to the people who loved you when they come to get you. You will see them again," she says, smiling into Binx's wide eyes.
"They loved you in life, they love you still, and you will see them again."
A small chorus of "oh" is heard in the Meadow, and the kittens curl up next to the mama cat. The summer breeze moves across the tall grass, and the little heads nod, one by one. The babies sleep peacefully as the Brook winds through the reeds.
"Guard them well," whispers the Wolf as he walks by, and the mama cat smiles and nods, nuzzling the tiny pink pads, kissing the small noses.
The afternoon sun shines bright, and they all nap, breathing in the perfume of the beds of clover around them.
All is quiet in the Meadow.
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*wipes tears from her eyes*
That was beautiful, Emma.
Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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Emma, so beautiful. And so comforting. I can see them now when I close my eyes and it is a wonderful sight to behold. Thank you.
Posted 2 years ago by WillowandWindismom #
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Beautiful, Emma! *tear rolling off tip of nose - caught in tissue before it hits the keyboard* Thank you!
Posted 2 years ago by nawlins catmom #
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Emma, you manage to say exactly what we're thinking in such a wonderfully touching way. (sniff, wipes tears away, again)
Posted 2 years ago by Moonshadow_NZ #
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