Susie, can I help? Right now helping someone else would keep my mind off my own problems.
I will be all alone on Christmas. My parents won't be here, John found out that he has to work on a special project due on Dec 26th so he can't come home, my sibs are all out of state, my best friend is going home to CT for her Christmas, so I am sitting here trying to not to cry.
On top of everything else, while I know that the surgery my brother is going through is horrific, I feel that the fact that I almost died of the disease that has flaired up now and my parents felt it more important to be there than with me reminds me that I really am nothing to my family.
Sorry everyone