I'm balling my beloved Sweetie Pie. Died.
I don't know why and the vet said she was fine.
I remember he doing like a rythem of meows as she was laying. I pet her thinking she was just having a nightmare and she did it again and i gently petted her again. And she stopped. I figured she woke up and went to sleep. This whole time she was laying.
She was normal all day. I picked her up cause it smelt (As if she pooped) and she was limp. It felt as if i just picked up a ball of fluff not my Sweetie Pie and she wasnt moving she wasnt breathing and her heart wasn't beating. I don't know what happened I love her so much. I wish I could have done more. I.. I just don't know what happened. R.I.P Sweetie Pie. I love you. And I wish I could have stopped this.
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Well Sweetie Pie just died about 20 mins ago
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Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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She probably wanted me to be there but I was too stupid I hate myself
Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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Sometimes, no matter how hard we try, they don't survive.
There is a place called the Rainbow Bridge. It is a beautiful place just this side of Heaven where all the animals we love go to wait for us when they leave this world. My Mamma Kitty who left this world just two weeks ago is at the Rainbow Bridge. She loves to take care of babies. I am sure that Sweetie Pie is with her now.
And one day, though it will be many, many years for you, it will seem like no time at all for Sweetie Pie. She will remember the one who loved her so much and she will greet you at the Bridge.
Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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Sweetie Pie knows you love her. She was probably dreaming of a beautiful place when she died. Maybe there were other kitties around her waiting to lead her away to the next part of life. Don't feel bad about how things happened. Things happened the way they were meant to happen. There is nothing you could have done. Be gentle with yourself.
Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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Maybe it was internal and the mom left her cause she knew something was wrong with it. But she never did anything unusual. Until she died.
I don't think I could ever forgive myself. I left her sit there. Just let it blew over but it was her fighting for me to say goodbye. But I still didn't. I couldn't hold her till she passed on she just sat in her cage. I'm such a horrible person.Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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There are, indeed, many kitties on the bridge waiting for us. We may hurt but our pets are playing with lots of others who are waiting on us and enjoying themselves. It is very hard to lose a beloved per though. You will feel better over time, Don't beat yourself up for not being right there the moment it happened, Sweetie Pie knows that you were there for her and cared for and lover her. She is waiting and will come bouncing up when it is your turn to cross.
You can read Mamma Kitties story here http://www.dailykitten.com/chat/topic/20101 It still amazes me that OW could write this with all she was going through at the time.
Eric
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If you had known what was going to happen, you would have stayed by her side right? But you had no idea what was going to happen. You did not do anything wrong. You simply did not realize what was happening.
I have seen my babies die - it is not something that is easy to watch. It is probably for the best that you did not witness it. Sweetie Pie would want you to remember the good things and not to be left with the memory of watching her when she died.
Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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Well I saw her for a second while she was dieing the pet her once to make her stop thinking it was a nitemare. But it's funny cause as soon as I touched her she stopped. She wanted me and NEEDED me.
Im sorry for your loss. I've had cats die. But for some reason I feel worse with a defenceless kitten that was my responsability even to go potty.Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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Eric,
The reason I was able to write about it was because I had to.... I don't know how to explain it but writing is how I cope with things. I wanted to let everybody know what was happening, but I had to write what I could feel going on around me - not just a brief update on what was happening. I had to tell the story the way I felt it was really happening - not just the part where she was struggling to hold on - but the part about preparations being made to bring her to the Bridge.I have written about the Bridge many times to comfort others, but what good would all of the things I had written be if I could not also let myself be comforted by those visions?
That is how I was able to write what I did when I did.
Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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Lilcupcake,
I know this is tearing you apart. I can't say I know how you feel, but I do understand. You did the best you knew how. Sometimes human beings have blinders on when something bad is about to happen. You could not have saved that baby no matter what you did. You did comfort her, but after that point there is a good chance she did not even know what was going on anymore. She was probably already gone even though her body was still hanging on. You were there when she needed you whether you realize it or not.Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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If I did know.
I wouldn't of put her down even if I was about to die. I wish I knew. I hope that's how it was. Picking up her limp body was the strangest feeling. And even now I feel as if I can hear her cries. Not of her dieing but her usual ones. Ok thank you. If I knew what to do I would have done it. Even after I found her I still tried doing some kind of resesitation Just to try to get her back. I love her so much.
So so much.Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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I do understand. Sometimes I still hear Mamma Kitty's meows.
It will get easier... but for now just be gentle with yourself.
I am so sorry that your baby has died. She loved you too and I honestly believe that love like that will never die. If Sweetie Pie could, she would tell you she's okay now. I know that is little comfort when you want her to be okay and still be with you, but I hope in time the thought that she is okay will make the pain easier to cope with.
Posted 2 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #
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I'm sorry about Mamma Kitty. If Sweetie Pie was gonna die I guess it's better this way. Other then her going on another week then dieing. I figured her mom left her cause of something being wrong. I'm stupid for getting attatched. I love cats and dogs and any animal. I hate them and love them but I only hate then because I know they'll leave me one day
Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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LCC, I'm so sorry. This is devastating news and so awful for you. Poor little Sweetie is at rest now but you are left behind to grieve. Lots of {{{hugs}}}. I know how much it hurts.
You are right, probably Sweetie's mama left her because she knew something was wrong. Sadly, the odds were against Sweetie from the start -- up to 40% of little orphaned kittens die and no one knows why. It's sometimes called fading kitten syndrome -- they seem fine for a while and then they don't seem quite so good and they just don't make it. It might be because for a while the kitten is protected from sickness by the antibodies in their mother's milk, but eventually -- if they're no longer being fed by their mum, they lose that protection. Or all sorts of things might have gone wrong during mum's pregnancy or the birth, or mum and kitty could have had one of the dreadful viruses that can kill cats who haven't had their shots.
But think what Sweetie's short life would have been like if you hadn't rescued her. Because of you, she knew love and warmth and comfort. It was a tragically short life but you gave her everything in it she could want.
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So sorry LCC.
Posted 2 years ago by Pollys_Mum_in_UK_2605 #
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But I just wish I could have made her life happy and long instead of tragically short.
I was figuring she wouldn't make it for some reason but it felt she would last foreverPosted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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Honey you DID make her life happy! As others have said and you guessed, most likely something was wrong with this baby for the mother to reject it, that happens in nature, survival of the fittest. You gave her a chance and you loved her. So she knew love and comfort and safety, so much more than the too many other babies born to animals every day. I know it's terribly painful and sad but do try to hang onto the fact that you loved her, cared for her and that she loved you, too. She knew you were there. And now, she is at the bridge, playing and romping and having a great time with no pain and sorrow. She will wait for you and many, many, many years from now will greet you and tell you how much she loves you and what a great mom you were to her. I promise.
Posted 2 years ago by Jetta and Boo Boo's Mom #
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ok thank you
I hope she does know i loved her.
Cause I love her more then words can explain.Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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She knew, LCC, she knew.
Posted 2 years ago by Jetta and Boo Boo's Mom #
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Thank you
Posted 2 years ago by Lilcupcake56 #
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May she rest in peace on the other side of the Bridge....you did well by her, you gave her love and caring.
Posted 2 years ago by AZDEBRA 5/27 & crew #
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I am so verysorry for your loss of Sweetie Pie. I know that she knew you loved her. RIP sweet one.
Posted 2 years ago by SammyandOliversmama #
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I am so very sorry LCC. Sweetie Pie knew you loved her and know that Mamma Kitty is caring for her till you meet again.
Posted 2 years ago by JoanfromNewJersey #
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I'm so sorry LCC {{{hugs}}}
Posted 2 years ago by MadcatwomanintheUK #
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You have my sympathy, LCC. It's never easy to lose a cat. I've lost two in the last year and know the heartache. We all go through the "What ifs" and question whether we did everything we could have. But our kitties know we love them and did our best. Sweetie Pie is with you in spirit and may come pay a visit in a dream. She is okay.
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I'm so sorry for your loss LCC - kittens often decline very quickly and the only thing we can do is know that we gave them love and hope for however short of time they were here with us. She knew she was loved, she was given warmth and care. You did all you could. It doesn't make it easier, I still grieve my Callie and Tiger who went to the Bridge too soon for my liking; wishing you peace and comfort in this time of healing.
((Hugs))
Posted 2 years ago by SnowFlower #
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