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   I have never done anything like this before, but have no one to share my thoughts with. I don't think there is anyone in my everday life that could understand what I'm going through... Of course, neither do I. I have been crying a great deal for the last two days since a very upsetting episode occured involving one of my cats 4 week old kittens and my dog. I did my best, or thought I was doing my best at keeping the kittens safe from the dog who is definately of the high prey drive variety. The door to my office was not shut completely and he barged in snatching up one of the kittens in an instant. It happened so fast that I had no time to react other than to scream in horror, my son grabbed the dog and basically choked him so that he would free the kitten from his jaws... the kitten was moving around at first but layed down quickly and was shallow of breath.. I immediately called for emergency veterinarian assistance and we took Lola to the vets within minutes. An xray showed that Lola had a collapsed lung but the vet said that it wasnt so bad that she could not breathe and that it would most likely heal. The vet said it was better to let it heal on its own rather than to do anything invasive which may have been too tramatic for her tiny little body. I got some kitten formula from the vet so that I could feed her in the case that she could not nurse from the mother cat. After a horrible ordeal we had her back at home and she seemed to be coming along fine... then a few hours later she became pale and faded away very quickly.. there was no time to do anything.2 days later I still feel completely horrible and I cant even look at my Dog... I know its not his fault but I cant help feeling this anger... I blame myself and hate myself for not doing a better job at protecting her precious little life. She never even had a chance to be a kitten.. to play and explore. I just cant stop seeing it over and over and replaying her taking her last breath. I hope talking about it here can help. Thank you in advance for listening ( reading ).

   Jill

   Posted 2 years ago by jillybean #

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   JJ, sorry for your loss. It may have been that she was needed someplace else so she crossed the Rainbow Bridge very soon in her short life. Accidents happen for reasons that we don't know so please don't blame yourself or the dog.

   Posted 2 years ago by AZDEBRA 5/27 & crew #

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   http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm This is where Lola has gone, as you can see she will get every chance to be a kitten and do all the fun things kitties do.
   I'm so sorry Jillybean about your loss of Lola. Please don't blame yourself for what happened as sometimes it's impossible to prevent accidents. Do come back to TDK and chat with us more, it's a great group of people here.

   Posted 2 years ago by Moonshadow_NZ #

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   I'm so sorry about your loss. It's hard to deal with the fact that our pets can still have a basic underlying instinct that can overwhelm their socialization. Please don't blame your dog - he didn't do it to be bad.

   Accidents happen. You didn't cause it and you did all you could to prevent it. Don't beat yourself up. Lola is happy, safe and well. She doesn't blame you or the dog. It sounds like Lola may have had some internal bleeding that wasn't found on x-ray.

   The pain you feel will lessen with time. Allow yourself to grieve but don't beat yourself up. The other kittens still need you, as does their mama and your other pets.

   Posted 2 years ago by CheetahBoysmommy #

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   JB, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost 2 orphans within a week of each other at the end of July and begining of August and another a week ago. And I, as well, have a dog that either has a very high prey drive or wanted so much to play with a guinea pig I had just rescued in early June. He chewed THRU a door, knocked over a cage and I returned home to find a sweet boar I only had for 4 hours lifeless on the floor.

   You did wonderfully, please don't beat yourself up over it. Lola was loved and cared for, and is was a horrible accident. Peace to you while you grieve the loss of your little furbaby.

   Posted 2 years ago by SnowFlower #

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   (((((((((((((JB)))))))))))))
   I am so sorry for your loss. Lola is playing happily at the Bridge. Please don't blame yourself or your dog, you did all you could and he didn't do it to be bad. Prayers going up for you and all your furbabies.

   Posted 2 years ago by SugarBee #

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   i'm sorry for your loss , your baby is at the bridge playin in the sunshine with the many TDK kitties that have passed over. prayers and hugs to you and your fur babies , and all the fur babies at the bridge...

   Posted 2 years ago by beth #

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   I'm sorry and hear such heartache in your grieving. Accidents happen and I hope you won't beat yourself up for such an event. I know there are some breeds of dogs who can never learn to leave cats be. I hope that you're able to find a solution that keeps the dog from reaching the remaining kittens. Thoughts and prayers to you. {{{Jill & Kitty}}}

   Posted 2 years ago by Karenopa #

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   {{{HUGS}}} May the pain from your loss subside & your Heart be filled w/good memories of Lola & what you already did to help her.

   Posted 2 years ago by feral #

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    JB, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray your pain will lessen and that you will remember how much love you gave Lola in such a short time. {{{JB}}}

    Posted 2 years ago by katthays #

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    Very sorry for your loss. Sadly these things can happen, but take comfort you made every effort to save Lola.

    Posted 2 years ago by 2bpurring #

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    {{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}} So sorry for your loss. I wasn't your fault. Unfortunately, it's nature at it's worst. Allow yourself grieving time - as much as you need, but don't beat yourself up - please.
    Sharing the loss helps, as you already have. Just hang in the JB.

    Posted 2 years ago by artistabobbi TX 1/17 #

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    I am so sorry about Lola, Jillybean. Please don't blame yourself...it wasn't your fault. Prayers of peace and comfort for you. {{{Hugs}}}

    Posted 2 years ago by corzak #

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    I'm so sorry you lost Lola, and more so that you witnessed what happened, that must have been very traumatic for you. Please don't blame your dog or yourself, unfortunately it is nature, and accidents do happen. {{hugs}}

    Posted 2 years ago by MadcatwomanintheUK #

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    I want to thank everyone for the kind and thoughtful words. I guess I will just have to live with the sadness untill the day comes that it subsides. I know that it was nature for the dog to do what he did, however it was me who did not ensure her safety. I let her down. I feel worse about this than family member who have died.. for the fact that it was too soon and violent and she was in pain. I will continue to question a lot of things.. did I feed her too much, did it get into her lungs... should I have had the tube put into her lung to clear the air ( even though the vet did not recommend at that point ) It is an awful feeling... and I wish to God that I could believe that she is over this rainbow bridge everyone keeps mentioning. I am going to look for something to do to help combat this thing... I am thinking of volunteering at the local humane society... anything to distract me from it.. or at least help some other poor creature who hasn't had the best shot at life so far. Also to try to find the love I once felt for my best friend Monty... he was not getting the attention he needed either.. so many variables, so many unanswered questions. Sorry for being such a whiner, it's not who I usually am. Thanks again to all... because reading this stuff does help.... at the very least it's helping the tears flow. I am glad to know there are so many kind and caring animal lovers out there. Animals don't get the love and respect they deserve. :) JB

    Posted 2 years ago by jillybean #

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    JB, you've always got an ear here, and a cyber shoulder to cry on if needed. TDK has grown into a wonderful little community who help and support each other when needed, and enjoy a lot of silliness the rest of the time. I hope you continue to post and join in when you feel like it. Welcome, I'm sorry for the circumstances that led you to us, but am glad you are here :o)

    Posted 2 years ago by MadcatwomanintheUK #

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    SPECIAL THOUGHTS COMING YOUR WAY ON YOUR LOSS.

    Posted 2 years ago by jeankit #

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