I went away to the Ocean this weekend. Did a lot of soul-searching and recharging that was dearly needed. I have a lot of things I need to change in my life, about my life, things that matter that only I can do and only do for me, not for some man or family member or job. Me.
I'm very sad right now as I believe I have come to the end of my relationship with honey. If we have one more try in us it will definitely be the last one for I cannot keep doing this. Time will tell. Right now we are not communicating and I am moving forward with taking care of Elaine.
I'm looking forward to the Austin meet-up and meeting everyone! I might be going to New York in November (not the city, the State, south of Rochester). That is still in the maybe category, if not, then definitely in the Springtime. I don't want to go up there once the snow flies and it does fly early there!
I need to clean my house. Really clean it. And simplify. I have too much STUFF and it doesn't bring me happiness, contentment or joy. It's got to go. I have to clean my inside house, to (my head). That will take longer but I'll get there.
Sitting and watching the vast ocean has always been spiritual for me and I got a big recharge.
I'm heading out to grocery shop. If I don't fall from exhaustion later I'll come on by. I need to put a boundary around my computer time but I will MAKE SURE I have TDK time every day!
I love this family and you have sustained me through so much. I'm so glad my Jetta brought me here, gosh, over two years ago now.
Love,
Lainey
