{{{Lainey}}} I am just glad you sound all right.
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So glad to see you post Lainey....You scared the holy begeezous out of us! Please, Please know that we care so much! You aren't alone no matter how alone you think you are! We're all just an email or phone call away. The great thing about emails is you can write them at any time day or night and know that your friends WILL be there for you as soon as they see them. Writing about our fears and unhappiness is also theraputic...I wrote novels of journals after my son passed away and think I would have lost my mind completely without the purging. (((Lainey)))
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Marsha it's okay. Officer just left and I'm fine. We chatted for a few minutes.
It's about not wanting to feel emotional pain. I know there is no excuse. Reasons, yes, excuse, no, at least with the knowledge I have about substances and about myself.
I miss my mom. I miss my daddy. I'm better about Sandy and I do miss her, though she is out of her pain now and that makes me happy, for lack of a better term or phrase. I am still haunted about how awful I treated her. Trust me it was not pretty. And I miss my Jetta girl. I miss Boo Boo but Jetta, she was my little soul mate. She was my best friend. Just like me. Shy. Sad. A loner. Quiet. And she loved me. She washed my face when I was sick or crying. She "told" me when it was time to go to bed! She was just such a quiet, loving presence in my life. That unconditional love thing.
I'm frustrated that the people I work with/for don't understand what it's like not to be able to breathe. My lungs are scarred and when I get a cold I stay home for a day to take vitamins and drink fluids and take care of myself. This time I ended up with bronchitis and a sinus infection and was flat for over a week.
I was feeling lonely and sad. Not so much "depressed" (the whiskey took me there), just lonely and sad.
I pulled a muscle (I think) in my groin area and it hurts like hell to walk down steps or when my right leg is stepping back (not the lead leg).
See? Just complaining all the time. I don't want to always be complaining. That is one of the things ex-honey told me, that I complain all the time.
My roommate is leaving at the end of the month and it's going to shoot the budget all to hell. I will find another roommate and aim for a January move in.
Anyway, I'm going back to bed now.
Thank you all again. For everything. Trust me when I tell you all that it feels good to be cared about. I'm so tired of caring about and for others and feeling so alone. I know (and knew) you all are there for me. I guess the little drama queen in me came out tonight.
Posted 1 year ago by Jetta and Boo Boo's Mom #
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Thanks Lainey. Catch ya tomorrow.
Posted 1 year ago by JoanfromNewJersey #
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(((Lainey))) Coming in very late to say that I'm glad you're OK! Honey, please don't feel bad about complaining; you have more than ample grounds to, and you know there'll always be someone here to listen. We love you Lainey!!
Posted 1 year ago by Bellantara #
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Lainey...I'm not usually on the puter this late at night (It's 10:50 p.m. here in Cali) but something urged me to get on. I'm glad there was a welfare check (Thank You BC). I'm so glad your okay. I know all too well how dangerous presciption meds & alcohol are. Whether taken on purpose or by accident,the results can so easily end in death.
Please know that a very high number of us TDKers have suffered from depression at one time or another. Some still are & some get thru it & are good to go & can get on w/their lives w/little interuption from these things.
I hope you realize you are loved by many of us here & we all hope & Pray that you are well again soon. You can also email me if you would like to talk. I was happy & excited when I was able to talk on the phone w/you from the meet-up. Your as wonderful & sweet as I imagined you to be & hope we can talk again soon.
Much Love to You Lainey...& hope your able to get some rest. -
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Lainey, I'm glad you are fine now. {{{hugs}}}
Posted 1 year ago by Moonshadow_NZ #
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{{{{{Lainey}}}}}} I'm sorry I kind of yelled at you in my earlier post, I was so scared for you. I understand about lonely and sad, believe me. I wish I could make your coworkers understand, and that I could fix the other things in your life that make you sad. All I can do is say please take care of yourself. We need our Lainey around for a very long time, strong and healthy.
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(((Lainey)))
Glad to know the officer came by, glad to know you posted and are better.
We are here for you Lainey...we may not be right next door, but you are not alone.
Life does suck at times....people are sick, people pass on, money issues, relationships...etc...but there are great things about life that make it worth the ride...People, animals, a child's laughter, the beautiful sunrises and sunsets, love, friends, etc....
I have not been depressed, so I cannot comment or even understand the emotional or mental state of depression but know I say all this with a good heart. I too have lost my mom(whom I took care of) and my dad, lost my sister, I have been sexually assaulted in my life but somehow, after these and more things happened, I looked inside myself to find the strength to move on. Someone always will have it worse than me and I am thankful for what I do have. Sometimes I get down about things and I look around and say, well at least I have this or that...it could be worse.
You are among friends here Lainey, we love you and want to see you alive again. Go to meetings, call us, make some new friends and go out with them. live life and maybe even get a new kitty when you are ready.
Love you sweetie...hang in there and we will get you through.Posted 1 year ago by cricketsmama #
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Lainey, take care of you or we are all coming with the kitteh brigade and taking care of yoU!
Posted 1 year ago by mollycat71 #
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Thank you, again, everyone. Again I'm sorry I did this to you all, and to myself, but I am grateful to be cared about and loved.
Have to get ready for work now, running late.
I love you all.
Posted 1 year ago by Jetta and Boo Boo's Mom #
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Oh and don't forget my new email is TDKLainey at gmail :-)
Posted 1 year ago by Jetta and Boo Boo's Mom #
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Lainey, please take the love and hands reaching out to you and know that we all care. There's nothing so unsurmountable that your friends can't help talk you through... we'll tell you when you need to seek a professional's assistance too, because we all love you and care for you. Drowning your sorrows in alcohol only postpones the pain, it doesn't remove it. TALK it out. As often as you need to.
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Thanks Lainey for telling us all that brought you to this mishap with 'whiskey'. Ewwwwww....I stopped touching that one years ago...it seemed to always hurt more than it helped. But I know just letting all that out of you, you have to feel a little better. I know I would. Hope you got some rest. (((Lainey))) Try not to think of yourself as 'complaining' but more as 'sharing'. =)
Note to Marsha: Love you....you did so good! =D
Joan, Amy, and EVERYONE else....You guys ROCK! Who could ever ask for better littermates???? =O -
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I'm so glad to see you're doing better, Lainey. Please, please take care of yourself and do what you need to do to keep from harming yourself like this again. Whatever it is that you're going to do at 5:30 (AA meeting?), please make it your top priority tonight.
Buttercup, thank you for arranging the welfare check, and Mollycat, thank you for assembling the needed information and standing ready to take action. Joan, thank you for talking to Lainey and keeping us posted on her condition.
{{{Lainey}}} and {{{everyone else}}}
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Lainey, so glad you are ok. You have many people who so care about you. I know it isn't always a substitute for someone being there. I am praying that you find a new roommate soon and that person turns into a real friend.
Posted 1 year ago by KYKAT 12 23 #
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