Thanks, AV, and welcome home, Deb.
You know, I was opposite. When mom and dad were dying and when my sister died unexpectedly, I was in complete "do" mode. Had to be as everyone else was useless. I'm a doer and fall apart later kinda gal. Except when Steve died and my sisters got me through. Though I did his funeral (both of them!) and everyone was completely amazed at how great I did.
Went to the cemetery today. Missing the ones who are gone. Missing all the "what once was" with them, people in my past and the one in present. I don't think I am meant to be happy. I just can't get anything right anymore. I still don't know about my clearance, I can't sleep due to extreme worry and when I do sleep or am trying to fall asleep I hallucinate from not enough sleep (I keep hearing things in my head - no, not voices!, banging). I called for my Jetta last night.
I am p.o.d at the folks who left here and went to FB. I miss them and the way TDK used to be (and I dearly love all of you who are still here!)
Anyway, I'm at the end of the rope and the knot feels like it's getting smaller and smaller and harder to hold onto.
Anyway. I've ordered dinner from Outback. Found a gift card someone gave me (hope it's still good!). Till later.
Posted 6 months ago by Jetta and Boo Boo's Mom #