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Mother's day sadness

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  • Started 3 years ago by owlwatcher_974
  • Latest reply from 2bpurring
  1. *returning after church and all the Mother's day praises and the mother's day sermon... and having been to the grocery store seeing all the mother's day flowers and balloons and cards... sits down in front of her computer and stares at the keyboard for a few moments before typing out a Mother's day message for her mom*

    Dear Mom,

    I hope you are having a wonderful Mother's day where you are. I'll bet Dad has brought you a wonderful bouquet of roses the way he always used to when both of you were still here. I wish I could get you a gift but I have no way of sending it to Heaven. I still miss you and Dad so much. I love both of you and I will see you when it is time for me to come join you. Until then, I will do my best to keep only the happiest memories of both of you in my heart.

    Please pray for me like you always used to. I could really use the prayers right now. I love you. Tell Dad I said I love him.

    Love,
    Mary

    *wipes the tears from her eyes and walks away from the computer*

    Posted 3 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #

  2. Like I had said before...please tell me your studies are in English. You are a most eloquent writer.
    Here's a Mom hug for you...your Mom sent it!

    Posted 3 years ago by Tigerlilly #

  3. I so understand, OW. I miss my mom so much. It's hard for me to realize how old she would be by now, but in my mind she will never grow old. Sometimes, although I can see her face, I can't remember her voice and that scares me. But sometimes, in my dreams, I can hear her call me. Yes, Mother's Day is hard. I can't even take my mom flowers because she rests in another city. But to me, she isnt there under that stone - never under that stone. She is in my heart, and my greatest hope is that she watches and is proud of me. I know that I will never grow too old not to miss her. My friends all used to laugh at me, because I always called her "Mommy". But she was Mommy to me and why should I have changed what I called her simply because I grew up?

    I love you, Mommy. And I miss you terribly. Happy Mother's Day.

    Posted 3 years ago by WillowandWindismom #

  4. OW, I cried when I read your post. My mother passed last year and my father has been gone for 32 years. Today was so hard. I see all the cards, flowers and gifts and even though I buy for my mother in law, it's not the same. I am no ones daughter anymore. I can't buy a Mom from Daughter card. I went to the cemetery today and left some flowers, and I sat there and sobbed for a while. She is not there and I could hear her in my head, Jenny, get a coat on, Jenny, get off the wet grass and blow your nose.
    I know that she and my dad are dancing in heaven and watching over me and my daughter.
    Here is to all the mothers who are no longer with us, but are still alive in our hearts.

    Posted 3 years ago by cricketsmama #

  5. Awww sorry....:(

    Posted 3 years ago by bumblebee #

  6. I miss my mother too, ever exasperating and loving nuance of her. My husband's mother is still alive, but deep in the hell of Alzheimers.

    When we visited her today and took her flowers, I also took a bunch of extra roses. I asked the front desk which ladies hadn't had a family member visit today (and who didn't have family at all). The receptionist pointed out 4 women sitting in the common room. I spent 3 or 4 minutes with each of them, gave them each a couple of roses and asked them what they had done today. It's such a simple thing to do, just to ask a question and listen to the answer.

    I know it doesn't make up for not having a family member visit, but at least it gave them some one to talk to and some one to listen to them.

    Oddly enough, my mother would never have done that; she wouldn't have been willing to spend the time with "old people", even when she was one. But it made me feel better.

    Posted 3 years ago by CheetahBoysmommy #

  7. Owlwatcher, let the gentle breeze be a kiss from an Angel(your mom and dad). It is listed in a poem I posted here awhile back called an "Angel's Kiss"
    I am sorry for your loss. I hope this gives you a bit of comfort.

    An Angel's Kiss

    We go through life so often,
    not stopping to enjoy the day.
    And we take each one for granted,
    as we travel on our way.

    For in your pain and sorrow,
    an Angel's kiss will help you through.
    This kiss is very private,
    for it is meant for only you.

    We never stop to measure,
    anything we just might miss.
    But if the wind should blow by softly,
    you'll feel an Angel's kiss.

    A kiss that is sent from heaven,
    a kiss from up above.
    A kiss that is very special,
    from someone that you love.

    So when your hearts are heavy,
    and filled with tears and pain,
    and no one can console you,
    remember once again...

    About the one's you grieve for,
    because you sadly miss.
    And the gentle breeze you took for granted,
    was just AN ANGEL'S KISS.

    Posted 3 years ago by Renee in Arkansas #

  8. That was sweet, CBM. My father had Alzheimer's and I finally had to put him in a nursing home. There were so many people there who never had a visitor. Those ladies may have been a bit confused but I know that your kind act must have meant a great deal to them.

    Renee, that is a lovely poem. I will remember that next time I feel a breeze on my face.

    Posted 3 years ago by WillowandWindismom #

  9. Renee, that was beautiful. Funny, there was a breeze when I was at the cemetery and I thought of her.

    CBM, my mother was in a nursing home for the last few years of her life. She was a social butterfly and I knew a lot of the people there, and it was so sad to see people with no one to come and visit or take them out. I befriended a lot of them. When I was pregnant, it was like it was the nursing home's baby. What you did today was awesome and I could only wish more people would do that too.

    Posted 3 years ago by cricketsmama #

  10. My mother passed away when she was only 48 years old, one of the last adults to get polio in the last epidemic of 1953-54. She had this rotten disease for 13 years, and I was 17 when I lost her.

    Somehow, the image that comforts me today is the thought that in heaven she has gathered all of her friends, and the mothers of all of you, for one of her fabulous spring teas. The large, gauzy garden hats, the fragile tea cups, the silver trays with lace paper doilies holding the tiny sandwiches and buttery cookies, the sweet raspberry tarts and iced petit fours, and all of this in her rose garden -- and the laughter and chatter of all of the ladies, and the fragrance of the roses lingering in the afternoon.

    And all of US, the daughters, are in the side garden, champagne flutes in our hands, and celebrating the fact that God gave us such lovely mothers.

    Celebrate that once we had them, and we will see them again.

    Posted 3 years ago by Emma #

  11. Oh, I love that image, Emma! And my mom loved a pretty hat and pretty dresses. What a lovely, lovely image. Yes, aren't we truly blessed to have had such wonderful mothers.

    I am so sorry about the loss of your mother at such a young age. I can't imagine. I was much older and it was still hard. My mom was killed in an accident. I never got to say goodbye.

    Posted 3 years ago by WillowandWindismom #

  12. Oh, honey, that is hard. I am so sorry! Accidents are the worst way to lose someone. There is such an immediacy and not being able to say good-bye is painful in the extreme.

    Bet your mother is friends with my mom now, though. My mother adored a beautiful hat, and polio never damaged her vanity. She would never let anyone see her without her make-up and every hair in place, and she would wear the prettiest dresses.

    Yup, your mom and mine are definitely friends.

    Posted 3 years ago by Emma #

  13. How funny, Emma - my mom never went out of the house without her makeup on!

    The day that she was killed, the rest of my whole family was also in the accident. A balcony that they were standing on to watch a graduation ceremony collapsed. My father broke both of his feet and my sister had compound fractures in both legs. We were afraid that she would never walk, but thank God, she has done so well. I wasn't there because there were no more tickets for the event. But my husband and I buried Mommy alone because the rest of my family was in the hospital. I guess I am thinking of it so much today because the very last day that I spoke to Mommy was Mother's Day. The next day they left on what was supposed to be such a memorable trip. The anniversary of that day is one week from today. I can remember every horrible moment of that day, beginning with when my husband hung up the phone, gently took me by my shoulders and sat me down. I know that it was probably one of the hardest things that he has ever had to do. We were able to fly and be there that night and they let me go in and spend time with Mommy. She still had her lipstick on. For some reason that just made me fall apart. I thought that maybe if I could just shake her, she would wake up. And I was very grown and a nurse so of course I knew better. But, when it's your mom, you are just a very little girl again. It took me years before, when I thought of her, I would remember a strong healthy, and yes - always wanting to look nice, mom. I chose her favorite dress to bury her in.

    Gosh, I'm sorry! Arg!

    Posted 3 years ago by WillowandWindismom #

  14. Wow,I'm so sorry for anyone who's mother has passed but I'm sure they're looking down and are VERY proud of their daughters. [[[HUGS]]]

    Posted 3 years ago by Buttercup #

  15. I do hope so, Buttercup. Well, I am off to fix a bite of dinner and raise a teacup to some special moms!

    Posted 3 years ago by WillowandWindismom #

  16. I'm blubbering all over the place...Thank you for sharing all your sad and touching partings from your mothers. I love the poem and the images for the garden party. I imagine my mother there too in her lovely hat, her spanish eyes alive with the fire of laughter. She passed in '85 of lung cancer. It was very sad watching her once strong body waste away and yet she fought so very hard to stay with us as each passing day drew her nearer to her final reward and peace. This day will always give us reflections of the love we shared with our mothers and OW go out and feel a breeze today..I know at that moment your mother's loving embrace will be yours. {{{Hugs}}}

    Posted 3 years ago by Karenopa #

  17. All I can do is cry... I know she is better off now, but I miss........

    Posted 3 years ago by kittymom #

  18. Awww so sad... HUGS to all of you! I enjoyed hearing your stories, about your dear moms and just loved the poem!! I lost my mom in 1974 when I was just 18, the year after I graduated high school. She suffered for years with cancer. I miss my mom, dad and one sister very much.

    Posted 3 years ago by bumblebee #

  19. *sorry that she made everybody so sad, she returns with flowers for everybody who is also missing their moms... feeling much comfort after reading some of the posts and the beautiful poem. After handing everybody a flower, she turns to leave.. going outside to feel the gentle breeze...*

    Posted 3 years ago by owlwatcher_974 #

  20. Owlwatcher, you don't make me sad. I miss my mom, but I loved her so much! She was the single largest influence in my life, and I still find it hard to believe, sometimes, that she's been dead for 6 years now. She was only 59 when she died, but every day that she had past 56 1/2 years was borrowed time, after her accident.

    I thank my lucky stars to have had such a wonderful mom, in spite of the inevitable flaws that make us all human. And I'm thankful beyond words that I was able to tell her how much I loved her, before her time came to an end.

    I'm of an old school of thought, that as long as one is remembered with fondness by someone, that one is not really dead. One's influence lives beyond one's years. If the posts on this thread are any indication, loving memories live far beyond the limited years granted to any of us. And love is a marvelous, precious, sacred gift. I cherish it, both in my memories of my mother, and in my limited knowledge of each of you.

    Smile as you remember, and know that love is a more powerful force than distance or death.

    Posted 3 years ago by anncetera2 #

  21. Emma, I just have to mention one thing... your memory of your mother is so lovely and picturesque! And so COMPLETELY not how I visualize my mom!

    (My mom rode a Harley 1100cc lowrider the final 15 years or so of her life; her accident was a motorcycle accident. My favorite picture of her is on her motorcycle, at Sturgis; she was grinning from ear to ear.)

    Posted 3 years ago by anncetera2 #

  22. I lost my mom nine years ago now... in January, from diverticulitis. She went in a lot of pain, I felt so bad for her. Her intestines had ruptured and she was full of sepsis. We couldn't donate any of her organs.

    What made it even worse...I had to put her cat down too. Pywacket was a terrible cat. She was nasty, mean, truly a bad seed cat. I'm a cat lover and it was an awful thing to do, but I endured nasty scratches from just getting the cat into her carrier when she came out from under the bed. She had been mean from the time she was a kitten and mom first got her, I couldn't believe she kept the kitty and couldn't believe that Py never got any nicer.

    My mom was another of the women who wouldn't leave the house without makeup and hair looking Just Right. My mom had a lot of demons of her own though, she was an alcoholic that never admitted it to us. I wonder what made her turn to alcohol, but she never talked about it. She was always sad though.

    Posted 3 years ago by Siobhan #

  23. I miss my mom, too. She passed away from a stroke at only 47 years old. It'll be 12 years ago in September. I never got to say goodbye, either.
    I was living in Florida and was battling an eating disorder and my dad had just the day before come on a surprise visit to get me some help. My mom was back in Denmark with my brother who was only 17. He's the one who found her and he and a kind neighbor called us to let us know.
    My dad will probably never stop blaming himself for not being there for her, eventhough the doctors assured him there was nothing he could have done. We flew back to Denmark and buried her on my brother's 18th birthday.

    Mother's Day is hard for me, too - I always feel left out, but I guess I shouldn't. I HAD a mom and I should spend the day remembering her. I've decided on her birthday next month to sponsor a child via Christian Children's Fund in her memory. She worked with children most of her life and all kids loved her. I think this would be a nice way to honor her.

    Posted 3 years ago by GreatDane #

  24. I have enjoyed these stories of your moms too! What nice memories and sad memories. My mom died in '96 of cancer at the age of 79. She survived breast cancer years earlier but then it came back. While in her coma she was still smoking a cigarette, with out the actual cigarette of course. That is the final picture I have of her in my head but we have tons of pictures we look at all the time. My one regret is that she never met my current husband, she would have loved him. Have a great week, peeps!

    Posted 3 years ago by HootiesMama #

  25. OW...I have tears too! How wonderful of you...I lost my Mom 11 years ago, and even though I now have a wonderful Step-Mom...I miss her so much on everyday..From time to time when I run across a heilum (sp?) balloon..I'll write I love you Mom..and let it go..don't know why..but it seems to help..I'm sure your Mom was looking over you yesterday and everyday, very proud of her girl.

    Posted 3 years ago by 2bpurring #

  26. Thank you OW this was really great. I lost my Mom 12 years ago and I'm amazed every year, that another year has actually passed by. I love her so much and miss her. May has always been the toughest month for me, her birthday, Mothers Day, and the day of her death all in this month.

    Posted 3 years ago by Boyzandme #

  27. These are all such lovely tributes to your respective moms. Mother's day is very hard for those of us with no moms, but when we remember them it's like they've never left us. At least that's how I always feel.

    Posted 3 years ago by HuddysMama #

  28. I just learned some major Mothers Day sadness...My Director of Operations (one of the wisest women I've ever known) has been working out of her home for 4 months because she has been 24 care for her Mother, lost her yesterday! Please send some prayers out to Susan and her family in this time of sadness.

    Posted 3 years ago by 2bpurring #

  29. One of the best parts, for me, of being Lutheran is that liturgical churches don't focus their services on secular occasions like Mothers' Day/Fathers' Day. For several reasons, those days were always difficult for me, and sitting through church services oriented around them made it worse.

    This is something I wrote the first Mother's Day after my mother died. I called it "The Woman Who Has Everything," and it's based on my own religious beliefs.

    What kind of Mother’s Day gift do you give the woman who has everything? I’ve received lots of advertisements during the past several weeks, encouraging me to give her flowers, perfume, books, clothing, jewelry, objets d’arts from around the world, and, if none of that seems appealing, a gift certificate from any store in town or across the internet. None of that will do any more, though, because no one delivers packages to the place where she now lives.
    I’ll grant that a look around the rooms in which she used to live brings many potential gifts to mind, because there sure isn’t much there. A few housedresses, a photograph or two, a couple of pieces of costume jewelry (she took her favorite piece with her when she left), a partially used bottle of perfume, a bed with a few stuffed toys and the handmade, heart-shaped pillow that was my last Mother’s Day gift to her, are just about all that remains. That’s where she used to live, though. Where she lives now is another matter.
    What do you give the woman who has everything? Look at what she has:
    -- A brand-new mansion, custom-made just for her, sitting beside a street made of gold;
    -- A whole wardrobe of bright white robes that will never become soiled or stained;
    -- A crown set with jewels that makes the trinket she took with her look like the toy it was;
    -- Unlimited access to trees that bear 12 different kinds of fruit, all of it fresh, ripe, and sweet, with no bruises or flyspecks;
    -- The same access to a river that carries the cleanest, freshest water ever made;
    -- And if that isn’t enough, eyes that can see, real teeth that will never get a cavity or produce a toothache, a straight back and strong legs that don’t hurt, and a torso with no hole in the left side [she had a colostomy].
    She has quite an impressive list of possessions, but she has something even better than all of them put together. She has the all-fulfilling personal attention and a breathtakingly un-obscured view of the God of the Universe in whose presence she now lives, who gave her not only her new home and everything in it, but also Himself to make it all possible.
    She knew about all this before she left. She saw it not long before leaving, reached up for it, gazed at it brightly and eagerly with eyes that no longer had any central vision, and tried to rise up from the bed in which she lay and grasp it. Just a few hours later, those eyes closed and she was there, and all of it became hers forever.
    What kind of Mother’s Day gift do you give the woman who has everything? I suppose the last thing I gave her as she was leaving, just a short blessing, will have to do:
    “Go in peace. Join the Lord.”

    Posted 3 years ago by Leeny #

  30. Oh, Leeny - that is truly beautiful. Thank you so very much for sharing.

    Posted 3 years ago by WillowandWindismom #


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